The “B” Word

We’ve all felt like a Burden at some time or another, but of course we do not want to admit it. Admit how hard it is to have to depend on someone for everything. Its hard to have to ask for money or ask for a ride to yet another doctors appointment or physical therapy visit. But we do what we have to do.

The people who really love us will never tell us that we are a burden but we still feel it. We feel every deep sigh when you forget to tell them something important, The eye roll they do when we have wasted 4 hours of our time at a specialist appointment only to be disappointment once again. The tension you can cut with a knife when the person you depend on has to change their plans to help you once more with something you need to do. It sucks!!!! And most times you feel like you cant tell them how much it hurts you to have to depend on them or to be a burden to them. A lot of times I know with me, I’ve felt pressure (if i’m honest that I put on myself ) to always be positive no matter how i’m feeling. On my worse days I put on a smile. On my very emotional days I withdraw to try and hide from everyone that I’m hurting , hide that I feel like i’m a huge weight on their shoulders. That I do not want to let them see me cry again today, That I don’t want to put one more burden on them.

What I’ve learned is that its okay to be sad and to cry and even laugh at yourself and how hard it is for you.  The people who really love you are going to be there regardless. Regardless of how much you bug them or get on their nerve. And yes our questions and appointments and even our bad days aggravate them but they are human. Eventhough for us they do superhero things. I don’t believe that we are a burden to them or anyone. Or that they think we are a burden they just have bad days too.

Nothing is wrong with them being annoyed or us needing attention. We just have to give our caregivers a break and some time to not be our caregivers but our loved ones, our boyfriends/girlfriends, our parents. That separation makes it easier for everyone and makes those hard days a little easier to manage.

Don’t think so much about the “B” word because honestly its not much you can do about your health situation or the fact that you need a little more attention. You also cant change the fact that people love you and will help you even when you don’t want it. Think about the fact that even in pain you get to spend invaluable time with the ones you love!!



Published by enduringminds

Welcome to my blog!! This is a place where everyday people can come to talk about their problems, ask questions and hopefully find support. I am a normal person who suffers everyday from Pseudotumor Cerebri or Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension, also from epilepsy. Everyday I have to endure and I know you do too so lets endure together!!

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